18 Aug 2009 Scary dream…
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To begin with, I do not have a fear in frog…hmm…ok..at least I’m able to look at them..but let’s not talk abt touching them =P

I had this super weird dream two days ago…here it goes:

There was this HUGE light green frog with big and round and glimmering black eyes staring right at me. Then it started jumping…felt as if it wanted to jump and catch hold of me. So I ran and it chased…though it doesn’t look vicious or harmful…but it has this emotionless expression that makes me fear it =X So finally my mum used a big net and capture it but the web feet of the frog got stuck to my arms at that very instant!!! So the frog with the body in the net..and the feet on my arms…i tried to peel it away but it just got stuck there so tightly =X  And I woke up after that. SCARY SIA~~~~

So I went online to search for the meaning of being chased by frog in the dream (as suggested by Miss Junie..hehe) and here’s the interpretation:

To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential for change or something unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus, signify transformation.  Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness, fertility, or rebirth.

To see frogs leaping in your dream, indicate your lack of commitment.  You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress.

Hmm..interesting…I’m changing job and dreaming of frog!!! Could it be that accurate? =X

Another one:

Frogs As Symbols of the Unconscious

As revealed in mythology, frogs, as water dwellers, are associated with the unconscious. When they appear in dreams, they symbolize something associated with the deeper aspects of ourselves — images of the hidden aspects of ourselves. They may represent hidden emotions, thoughts, or even creative aspects of which we may not be aware.”

Just for thoughts….maybe all these are hinting of my subconscious =P 
Time to sleep!!! Tada~~~

16 Aug 2009 Where is the Love?
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Till the end of time…it all boils to I’m still not good enough.

I’ve done my best…and I tot you’ve always know it too…feel it too…and loving me as much. Apparently the love is not enough to overcome this obstacle…the pain of all pains…it hurts like crazy…

it really hurts…

07 Aug 2009 想知道现在的你好不好?
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我以为我已经全部释怀
才了解原来都还在脑海

走过了一条街的熟悉 才想起你的陪伴
选择一件外套颜色  才想起是你的习惯
我以为我会放声的哭喊
才了解原来剩一点遗憾

想知道现在你好不好
那些你给我的回忆 快乐也不少
少了你的未来我很好

偶尔会想起当初的情景。。。
想起你的面孔。。。
想起你灿烂的笑容。。。
你对我的关怀备至。。。
令我至今都难忘怀。。。

好想知道离开了以后,现在的你过得好不好?

希望我们有缘再相聚 =)

27 Jul 2009 @ Crossroad once again
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Why do I have to be in this situation again and again?

I’m really tired

Tired of being always the one who really cares

Tired of feeling the fear of losing

Tired of the distance

Tired of crying when no one simply care

I’ve tried as much as I could everytime

I wonder how much more could I take it

When would the last straw be?

Will this ever end?

How long must I endure thru this time round?

It’s tormenting

It’s terrible

It’s cruel

It’s heartbreaking

Pls let me break free from this repeating cycle

I’m not a perfectionist, but I’m still a princess @ heart who yearns for a happily ever after ending.

19 Jul 2009 OMG!!!
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OMG!!! I can’t believe how long I’ve forgotten to blog already…to the extent that I have to go to JinLong’s blog to link to my blog…coz I’ve forgotten my blog address =X Wahaha….so ridiculous…OMG OMG OMG =P

Anyway here to share something very interesting…and it’s really 准到令人心痛!

水瓶座
            看到过花瓶的样子吗?口很小,想伸进去很难,但如果你能进入瓶子里,你真的会看到一个广阔无比的空间。瓶子们就是这样的。 
   当他们觉得你是真的真的爱他们,和你在一起真的真的安全时,他们会开始回馈的。他们回馈的时候你会惊奇到不敢相信,因为他们一旦爱一个人真的是无微不至。不过他们也很容易厌倦的呀,瓶子们有一颗猫一样的心,你要永远对他们有吸引力才好。不然他们很难不偷猩的。男瓶尤其如此,他们有的时候真的是做了对不起你的事也丝毫没有愧疚。有时候他们会无理的想只要我心里真正爱的是你不会离开你就是真的爱你。他们的自由有时就是放纵的借口。   
              但瓶子们也有弱点的,当他做伤害你的事的时候,你要懂得让他换位思考,甚至直接用他对你的方式隔天对他试试。他就会渐渐明白对你的伤害是怎样的了。他爱你他就会逐渐的懂得在乎你的感受。   
              瓶子们轻易不说我爱你这三个字的,这三个字在他眼里太神圣,更重要的原因是他们觉得说了这三个字在爱情中仿佛主动权就失去了。他们太怕失去爱情中的主动权。但你却不能不对他们说,很没有道理,但没办法的。如果一个瓶子对你说了太多的我爱你,反而证明他内心深处对你没感觉只是玩玩而已了。            爱上瓶子是一件很苦的事,所以爱瓶子的人不要问为什么该怎样,你只要在内心深处问问你自己能不能承受就好了。如果你觉得值得就去接着付出,如果你觉得不值得就勇敢的放弃。除非他转身,不然再不要给瓶子们机会。当然如果一个瓶子转身过太多次又伤害过你太多次也就放手的好。不然他会从心里有些瞧不起你的。    
            瓶子们若爱上对方,真的是占有欲好强的。他们轻易不表现出来,因为他怕他们过强的占有欲会泄露了他爱你不能没有你的底牌。不过如果他们开始限制你吃你的醋,那他一定是好爱好爱你的。   
         瓶子们有时候真的很难真正相信他们的爱人。而且越是爱有时候越难相信。因为他们的谎言有时说的好多所以总觉得别人也是在欺骗。千万不要轻易伤害了瓶子们的心,瓶子们对爱情很没有承受力的。你可能想象不到,当你刚刚气痛了你的瓶子或是和你的瓶子谈分手跳脚离开的同时,他们可能就会打电话给他们的红颜知己或是有暖味关系的朋友们,说一些过分的话做一些过分的事甚至当夜就会和他们发生什么……,瓶子们不是想背叛你,瓶子们只是好悲伤,找不到更合适的方式来发泄。好多被伤害过的瓶子都会生活得很烂很灰色,虽然过后可能会后悔厌恶自己到想死但他们就是习惯用这种颓迷的生活来掩饰自己深深的失落深深的痛。   
                   当然,当你后悔之后回来找他的时候,他还会接受你,他不会告诉你曾经发生过什么而且会极力的去掩饰,如果他爱你。但通常好多事实已经无法改变了。当你背叛了瓶子,瓶子们会痛到心裂成碎片,没有泪,即便有,也是流在了心里流到了别人永远看不到的背后。因为我说过的,虽然瓶子们忠诚度不敢苛同,但他们真的是在内心深处最最在乎的就是那两个字:忠诚。在你背叛了瓶子后有两种结果。一是瓶子们无声的接受,重新选择和你在一起,因为他们爱你,无法承受分手。但他们的信念死了,他们可能会不再相信你的话,他们会背着你有了另一个人,甚至另N个人,哪怕他们并不爱那些人,也可能会做一些不该做的事来谋求一些心理的平衡,然后再背叛你的同时找回那可怜的平衡同时痛不欲声。  
               另一种是,他们对爱的忠贞要求的太过唯美无法接受,瓶子们会用你认为最冷血的方式选择分手,可能是微笑的告诉你他们也从来未曾爱过你,你尽可以去和千百个人去睡;可能是毫不在乎的转身离去;可能是在分手后在你面前和无数个异性打情骂俏;可能是在最快的时间里接受另一个人重新开始并甜蜜的出现在每个人的面前……无论以上哪种,他们的心其实是在滴血的。前提是他们真的爱你。他们会在这些表象的背后独自买醉,在最短的时间里抽最多的烟,出卖自己的身体甚至灵魂。用最残忍的方式暗自伤害自己麻醉自己,也会去折磨这时爱他的下一个男孩和女孩。一个失去了信念的瓶子们的痛是无法想象的,他们只能真正用自己的方式慢慢的寻求某种出路。  
                         瓶子们喜欢一见钟情,但是他们更喜欢日久生情;瓶子们接受一夜性,但他们更渴望一生情;他们的弹性好大,善良几乎可以善良到佛的境界,卑劣也可以卑劣到遭万人唾弃。 瓶子们多数都很茫然。他们是真的不了解自己,不知道自己真正想什么要什么,虽然他们也许可以轻易看出别人的人性动机需求。瓶子们喜欢暗自观察身边的人,窥探到别人的内心深处,凭自己的直觉和洞察力去了解别人,他们的直觉往往也真的好强好强。 
                瓶子们最惨的就是碰到一个真的比自己还好自由还喜欢漂泊还花心的人,因为他们的好自由有的时候真的就是一种伪装,一种保护,一种检验你是否爱他的手段。一个真正只想爱你一个人只想忠贞于你一个人的瓶子就不会再要求什么自由了,他们想要的就是占有和共处。  
                做瓶子们父母也往往好辛苦,瓶子们是孝顺的,我确定。但那种孝不是顺从。他们有太多自己的想法自己的原则,所以当这些和父母的想法发生冲突的时候他们会据理力争。哪怕没有冲突,仅仅是父母的唠叨他们也只是暗自记在心里嘴上说着罗嗦罗嗦。他们太过叛逆太过自我,但真的,他们深爱自己的父母,深深的知道没有任何一种感情可以超越这种血肉之情,所以他们无法容忍你批评他们的父母或和他们的父母争执,不管他们是如何争执,这种资格只有瓶子们自己有。
Gotten it from facebook…and it’s so so accurate I feel..totally describe my view in terms of love and relationship =)
Enjoy reading!
29 Jan 2009 Happy Chinese 牛 Year!!!
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Here we are at the beginning of a Moo Moo Year!
Indeed it was a very special day of the year…hehe..CNY clashes with my birthday!!! Double Angbaos for me!!! Yippee!!!

22-01-09 : My 1st Birthday Cake ‘09
Went shopping with Cindy…and met up with JoJo for dinner at Pasta Mania…can’t imagine how much 3 gals can eat hur? We ordered $50+ worth of food! LoL…JJ came to pick Cin & I up afterwhich..it’s so hilarious to see him hiding behind Cin’s polka dots sweater when driving. Cin & him bought an Ice cream cake for me in the evening, since then JJ has been driving around with the cake in the car. And him being afraid that the ice cream cake would melt…he actually turned the air-condition in the car so so low till he was shivering inside =X *It was really chilling in the car* Haha…interesting..but 有心了!!!

My 1st cake and 1st flower of the year 2009!!! And the gift card is just so so wonderful too! *Muack*

1st flower & cake '09

1st flower & cake '09

Collage from Beloved Cin

Collage from Beloved Cin

23-01-09: Colleagues
Second celebration was with my colleagues…went to a thai restaurant for lunch…and they bought me the 2nd stalk of roses for the year 2009!! Plus two 乌龟s…Hoho…so so cute!!!

2nd rose and Present '09

2nd rose and Present '09

23-01-09: Jun & Gang
Met up with Jun & Gang for dinner @ Curry Udon restaurant situated at The Central shopping mall…I must say that it was really something special…very unique bowl of Udon…crapped alot..and eventually decided to head down for Zouk…went to WineBar..had “Snow White & the 7 Dwarf”, a bottle of beer..and entered Zouk!

2nd Birthday Cake '09

2nd Birthday Cake '09

@ WineBar

@ WineBar (Left: Weian, Jun, Me, JinLong, DeWei)

Snow White & 7 Dwarf (Guess who is the Snow White?)

Snow White & 7 Dwarf (Guess who is the Snow White?)

The "SNOWDARK"

The "SNOWDARK"

@ Zouk

@ Zouk

And someone got drunk one that night!!! NoNoNO…It wasn’t me…haha…that guy went “Oei…久久一次!!!” so many times on that night!!! Haha…

25-01-09: With Joel & Family
My very unique cake of the year…the 3rd cake!! It was a piece of Kueh Lapis!! How special could this yr be…birthday on CNY..and got kueh lapis as birthday cake..haha. Actually we were having the intention to go to chinatown for countdown…and that’s why he has no choice but to buy something that wouldn’t melt…and easy to manage (See i’ve explained for you here *Bleah*) Ta-dar!! There comes my KueH Lapis! =)

*Photos to be uploaded*

26-01-09: 4th Birthday cake ‘09
Finally my important day of the year has arrived!! Hehe…coincidentally my 6th uncle shared the same birth date as me…I actually went to starbucks (West Coast plaza) and bought 5 slices of cakes…piece them together and there it became the birthday cake for the both of us! The 1st time that I’m celebrating it with my uncle..the cake was very nice too!! Mango cheesecake…yummy yummy!

4th Birthday Cake '09

4th Birthday Cake '09

6th Uncle and Me!!

6th Uncle and Me!!

Blow Candles blow!

Blow Candles blow!

三朵小花

三朵小花

26-01-09: My 5th Birthday Cake ‘09
My 5th Birthday Cake of the year 2009!!! A strawberry Ice Cream cake from Swensens’! It was really sweet and delicious…thanks to my cousin Angela and Janny for ordering that cake in advance…and going the extra mile to make sure that I’ll have a cake to cut on 大年初一 *Muack* I love my sweet and loving cousins!!

*Photos to be uploaded*

To all who have make this a very special day in my life:
Thank you all for making this a wonderful week and day of the year for me! I truly enjoy myself and may all of your wishes for the new year would come true!!! *Hugs*

27 Dec 2008 心声
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Got this from “祝君好”’s blog。。。

…一个人的问题,两个人去修正;一个人

的挫败,两个人去承担。任谁一方受到伤

害,另一方都愿抵御百倍的痛…”  
It totally explains how I am feeling now….the frustration of not being able to reach out to your dear ones after so many years of companionship…perhaps I really fail to carry out my role properly..

是你決定我的傷心          是你決定我的傷心
如果我們還會重新相遇   我會用感覺擁有所有的你
是你決定我的傷心          是你決定我的傷心
如果我們還會重新相遇   我不會讓你決定我的傷心

05 Dec 2008 No more lesson…

Wasn’t feeling well since Monday…and i’m still sick!!! And all these started off with last saturday’s supper - naan and curry!!! However the naan and curry was really deli-cious anyway =P

Took a mini test on Wed at Ngee Ann…and that ended my course….the final exams would be on the 27th of Feb 2009…..have to wait for sooo soooo sooo long for it..guess I would have forgotten what I’ve learnt by then (X_X)

Met up with Eil after lesson and went to Helipad to meet up with Jun and JinLong…haha…quite a nice place to chill out…especially the “roof-top”. And Jun had a surprise for me!! It was from Joel..haha..he “deposited” a present with her and she passed to me on that day!!! =P So so so sweet my darling…but poor Jun..she has to remind herself to bring the present all day long… 辛苦你啦!Anyway surprises apart…back to helipad..one short-coming is that they don’t provide snacks/food!!! Hungry dollyn just finished her test…need to eat..so we went to Iguana after that. Though the main purpose is to try out the frozen margarita..the four of us had 2 jugs…haha..don’t really appreciate the peach flavor…but the mango flavor is fabulous!! Just like Slurpee..haha..

Here’s my present from my darling at far-away-land and the night’s memories!

30 Nov 2008 I’m BACK!
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WoooHoo!!! I’m back to blogging!!

Have been busy attending lessons and most importantly…Knitting the SCARF!!! Knit Knit Knit and Knit…while waiting for bus…while waiting for work to start…during lunch…after work…I only slept for ~4 hrs for the past week =X It’s really not fun!!! I think I won’t knit for a very long time from now on…..hahaha…Anyway here’s my weeks of hardwork..though not very completed…it wasn’t the length of my initial expectation…but due to time constrain here’s what I have only =P

The Scarf

The Scarf

Actually I only managed to wrap up the scarf on Thursday night…guess I was exhausted and fell sick on Thursday =X Took some medicine…slept thru the day…sent Joel to the airport on Friday morning..reached the airport ar 3am…n waited at Burger King till 615am to take train to office…worked thru the day n only slept ar 11pm that day (Was waiting for Joel to reach Seattle)!!! But I did sleep till 1pm on Sat…haha…SHIOK!!! It felt like I was having hang over this afternoon when I woke  up =X

Just went to JinLong’s house for WahJong…and then to al-ameen for supper naan!!! Yummy Yummy…they really have the best curry n naan (not that I’ve tried alot) Haha..but JL is too tired of eating Naan…apparently he has them everyday in Nepal =P

Going to have test again next wed…and it’s going to be my last day of lesson in Ngee Ann…there my student life ends…LOL I can finally have my rest after that…

To Cindy: Let’s meet up real real soon and I mean it k? Missing you so much!!! and we still owe HL her present!

To Jinyu: Let’s go shop for your bag before X’mas!!!

 

11 Nov 2008 A student again
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I’m back to school again!!!

Proteomic short course @ Ngee Ann poly started today…went off earlier from work and reached NP just on the dot @6.30pm. Somehow the feeling of me returning to school was quite different this time round…the students in the lecture hall are from all walks of life…there are stay-home mums, engineer, sales personnel, research nurse and etc. It was really a different experience studying with them altogether…we used to chit chat in class…not listening to the lecturer in the past. However this batch of students were so attentive thoughout the whole 2 hrs of lecture!!! I don’t even dare to joke with my colleague (We are taking the same course together)…everyone was so serious and keen in learning. A total change in attitude that I’ve observed here…and this really make learning much more interesting!!! I remained attentive for the entire 2 hrs…haha…what a wonder =P !!! Their attitude towards learning really inspired me =) And I guess I’ve fallen in love with studying all over again….

And and and…I simply love the milk tea @ NP!!! So much better than the ones selling in AH canteen…hoho…How I miss the milk tea!! Now I could have it for one whole month!!! Haha…decided to grab a cup for lecture everyday!!!

*Yawn* Better go to bed now…another long day tml =X

Nitez~~~